Before the morning

After a long talk with God and a few requests he answered me with a song. Like usual.

Thought I would share the song as it is completely beautiful.

Josh Wilson's Before the Morning

Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you where is He now

Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending

Someday somehow you’ll see you’ll see

Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend you know how this all ends
You know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there
So say a prayer

And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

God in the Eyes of a Three year old

I want a faith like that of my child. Nevaeh has been my biggest reminder of Gods goodness in my life.


My daughter is growing up before my very eyes. I can't believe that her baby years are gone, and her toddler years are basically behind her. Shes not like any child I have ever known. My little girl is very special. I thought I would share with the internet world, just how amazing she is.

Last week I was upset about money issues. Basically not trusting that there will be enough, even though there always is. My little baby heard me praying and said mama I have money. She went to her purse, took her much coveted quarters out (.50 worth) and gave them to me. She said here mama here is my money I am giving it to you" She gave me all the money she had. To her it was a lot, even though it may seem like nothing it meant everything to me.


Not only is she incredibly giving, she loves God. About a month ago I rolled my new SUV into my dads truck. Cracking the bumper and knocking out my dads fog light. I was so mad. I started crying and acting completely ridiculous. I got back in my car and was screaming at myself. Poor Lil Nev. She quietly spoke up and said.. "mommy its OK. Gods gonna put a big band-aid on it." then she started to pray asking God to put a big band-aid on my car.
I started to cry worse. She reminded me of what was important. My car is just a thing. Not more valuable than her, not more valuable than God. The first thing I did was get angry, the first thing my kid did was turn to God. I feel such pride when thinking about it. I also feel like I gotta be more like my little girl.

Not only in this moment does my baby pray, but she likes to pray in general. Its pretty awesome how little people just love God. No doubt. Complete faith. My little Nev has the faith and she rocks it.