Monday, November 17, 2008

Aching week

So its been a while since my last post. I have alot on the brain and for some reason or another can not get it out in any meaningful or comprehensive way. **SIGH**

Well for those of you who don't know, tomorrow I am going in to take a civil service examination. Its basically a psychological examination of my thinking and its to see if I can think enough like a police officer is supposed to. I am excited. Not afraid or nervous yet.

I went out and got the perfect skirt to wear to look all professional. I've practiced how to wear my hair in order to look 'copish' and tried to practice a confident demenor as I know our presentations will also be graded tomorrow.

If I pass this exam I go on to do a physical agility test. Which training for sucks. I can't do a 300 meter sprint in under a minute followed by 30 something pushups in 60 seconds and then follow it with 40 situps in the next 60 seconds and then a 1.5 mile run in 14 minutes. ALL CONSECUTIVELY. My body aches just practicing. I am sore all the time and not getting much faster or stronger.
FRUSTERATING. I want to be a police woman... just not a woman in pain all the time!

In the mean time I am also attempting to enroll at city u. To finish my psych degree. I am unsure about this. Its gonna cost me 30K to finish. Thats a lot of money just so I can do it all online.

ARGH if only life decisions were easy!

So the only happy thoughts I have to look forward to is the fact that I am going to twilight with my sisters and my BFF Jenny on Friday morning at 12:01! WOOT. !
So maybe after Twilight has left the system.. my thoughts will be clearer... less corupted by edward. Jacob.