God in the Eyes of a Three year old

I want a faith like that of my child. Nevaeh has been my biggest reminder of Gods goodness in my life.


My daughter is growing up before my very eyes. I can't believe that her baby years are gone, and her toddler years are basically behind her. Shes not like any child I have ever known. My little girl is very special. I thought I would share with the internet world, just how amazing she is.

Last week I was upset about money issues. Basically not trusting that there will be enough, even though there always is. My little baby heard me praying and said mama I have money. She went to her purse, took her much coveted quarters out (.50 worth) and gave them to me. She said here mama here is my money I am giving it to you" She gave me all the money she had. To her it was a lot, even though it may seem like nothing it meant everything to me.


Not only is she incredibly giving, she loves God. About a month ago I rolled my new SUV into my dads truck. Cracking the bumper and knocking out my dads fog light. I was so mad. I started crying and acting completely ridiculous. I got back in my car and was screaming at myself. Poor Lil Nev. She quietly spoke up and said.. "mommy its OK. Gods gonna put a big band-aid on it." then she started to pray asking God to put a big band-aid on my car.
I started to cry worse. She reminded me of what was important. My car is just a thing. Not more valuable than her, not more valuable than God. The first thing I did was get angry, the first thing my kid did was turn to God. I feel such pride when thinking about it. I also feel like I gotta be more like my little girl.

Not only in this moment does my baby pray, but she likes to pray in general. Its pretty awesome how little people just love God. No doubt. Complete faith. My little Nev has the faith and she rocks it.

God is Good?

Is God a good God? Recently that's a question I have heard a lot of. I've heard it from believing friends, non believing friends, and even from my own thoughts.

It’s hard to believe that God is good, from a certain point of view anyways. Human beings around the world suffer horrid events. Sometimes it seems that the random chance of where we are born determines how good God can appear. In third world countries and poor states of America natural disasters consume and destroy. In Africa people starve, die, and are forced into slavery. Around the world young women are forced into becoming Human traffic. Every day babies and children die of something that could have been easily cured.


How can a God who permits these things be truly good? Is often the question I ask myself. However, late its turned to be a question more like:

How can God, one so good like ours, love us for the things we do and don't do.

By chance I was born in America. By being born here, I was born to privilege. By this privilege alone GOD has called me to help those who aren't as lucky as me. It’s in people’s hands to help. Donating time, money, food, and other resources I alone could save one person’s life. By signing a petition to stop human trafficking, by not buying diamonds mined from slaves, I could stop one person from becoming a slave. If all of us participated we could change a lot of the way the world worked. If I vote, I can effect who is elected and who is my leader, and therefore I participate in changing the world.

In the worst ways I have heard individuals say they will not help because the ones who suffer do so willingly. They say they must suffer for one mistake, or for their parents mistakes, or for being born in a place where they are just so unlucky. These individuals are often ones, who could really make a big difference... I believe God tries and tries to speak into their lives yet they are stubborn and decide they shouldn't help because these people deserve to suffer.

WHY does GOD love people who do not take action? Why Does he love us for being such corrupt individuals we turn a blind eye to slavery? It’s because HE is good. God forgives us, he creates miracles in our everyday lives. It’s so easy to forget his goodness when we have become so accustomed to it. The very process of trees creating oxygen for us to breathe, a perfect amount of gravity for us to be able to walk on the surface of our earth, the perfect distance from the sun to Earth, the perfection of how babies are formed in the uterus... how are these not miracles, and pure expression of GODS goodness? He came here; he died for me, for you, for everyone. He suffered so that we may live. How is this not his goodness?

1 Timothy 1:12 I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has strengthened me, because He considered me faithful, putting me into service.


Do we people even try to live in Gods goodness, most of people don't participate. They blame, blame God, and say they aren't big enough to make a change so they don't even try.

I believe that, Yes even if we participated, some bad things would still happen. That is just part of being in a fallen world. Not one person can be perfect and because of this someone will suffer. Someone will be oppressed. BUT the goal is to use Gods goodness in our life to help others not just ourselves.

Twilight Experience

For those of you who do not know, I became a serious fanatic of the Twilight series over the last year. I read all the books, saw the movie more than once and even dreamt of being bitten. However this blog isn't a critique on my favorite set of novels, or new favorite movie. Its about how easy it is to hope, to believe in something as non existant as Edward Cullen.

Edward Cullen is a fictional character. Nothing about him is real, yet people around the world, have become facisnated with him as though he was real. Now I am not saying people truely beleive in him. But what I am getting at is the fact that it is so easy to beleive in something as make beleive as a vampire, yet the belief in God is often criticized. God has become the stuff of fiction. Science seems to try to exist with out faith. With out hope.

Hope isn't always easy. Neither is faith. To beleive in something you can not see and something you do not understand takes courage. I would have to say that reading a ficitonal book and becoming an avid fan gave me hope that people, perhaps, weren't lost at all. I believe God has just become harder for us HUMANs to see. His love, goodness, patience, mercy, joy, faithfullness, has been drowned out by our media, by our own negative thoughts.

Humans are programed to remember pain... it keeps us alive. iT keeps us from repeating deadly mistakes. So its easy to sit in front of the TV, or read the news paper and take in all the bad. For every 10 negative stories we hear about there might only be one positive one. We feed on the fear, on the negativity. We dont see the miracles. We see people loosing their homes, going hungry, terrorism in hotels, wars brewing... so we ask.. HOW could God allow all of this. God isn't good. He can't possibly exist in a world this bad, and if he does, he must not love us.! Right?

I feel bad for God sometimes. He gets a bad rap. He gets lumped in with us Humans. Just because we are bad. If we do something terrible, God gets blamed. The opposite doesn't tend to happen. Someone gets a great job with benefits an great pay and buys a beautiful house, they say I am so glad I got that education and that I worked so hard. God isn't part of why those things happened, yet when that same someone looses their home and job.. they say why God... WHY!

I believe now that you have to give people hope, feed them miracles, and then God would become easier to see. Our world drowns out hope. The one we have accepted any way. The majority of us have accpeted that miracles just dont happen anymore. Some of us have fought. Some of us keep fighting. We used to have shows like fact or fiction, unexplained mysteries, Real life miracles, but those shows have disappeared. I believe small shows like that, will keep people curious. Keep people hopeful.
I believe hearing about miracles, something unexplained will light a fire in a person. Keep them alive in the soul. I would call this the Twilight experience. Just reading about it would make you want it to happen to you.! So as member of our society, we should keep trying to find a way to feed other people hope. I want to do the same, I will do the same. I will work hard to focus on the good.. and faith wont seem so hard. Hope will become easy, and miracles they would happen daily.


My friend Heather told me last night that it snowed in Texas.! It took a lot of faith to just believe her text, but then I saw the pictures, and then I beleived. My point being it takes faith to believe. Sometimes we wont always be allowed to see the snow.. but faith.. makes believing.. and believing creates hope.

If we can believe it snowed in Texas, and that Edward Cullen truely is the perfect boyfriend, I think we can believe that God is Good and that he loves us. Its time for all of us to have a Twilight experience.